tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3747475121485461572024-02-07T20:40:25.411-08:00Going With The FLOAttempting to manage PCOS through diet with the help of WomanCode by Alisa VittiUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger80125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-13124004851141087722016-08-28T05:04:00.000-07:002016-08-28T05:04:28.292-07:00It WorkedAll the work we went through to get pregnant was a million times worth it.<br />
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Pregnancy and labor suck but you get the most wonderful prize afterwards. I had a very normal pregnancy despite all the issues getting there and gave birth to a completely healthy and wonderful baby boy.<br />
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Motherhood is everything I hoped it would be.<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-63346342413869211692015-09-29T10:02:00.001-07:002015-09-29T10:02:53.980-07:00We Have Achieved Pregnancy!Two and a half years has led us to this amazing point. We are five and a half weeks pregnant and everything is looking good so far!<br />
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I'm amazed and delighted that <a href="http://amzn.to/1L2jKLM" target="_blank">WomanCode</a> really worked for us.<br />
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I'm not a success story quite yet since there's a long way to go before a healthy and happy delivery. But we're well on our way. Despite PCOS and hypothyroidism we got pregnant naturally.<br />
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Only five weeks in it is already tougher than I expected in some ways. I haven't thrown up but my stomach often feels unsettled and the thought of food disgusts me. I'm sleeping a lot and don't feel much motivation to do things (like write this blog post!). I'm also having emotional issues with the hormones bringing up a lot of my fears, insecurities, and depression.<br />
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It's all going to be good, though. I know this journey will be worth it.<br />
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There's five more weeks to wait before I can see my midwife and get my first scan but the pregnancy has been confirmed with blood work and the hormones are rising appropriately.<br />
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If you are struggling to get pregnant because of a hormone imbalance or irregular cycles, you should definitely give the <a href="http://amzn.to/1L2jKLM" target="_blank">WomanCode </a>diet a try. You've really got nothing to lose!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-826686801223053272015-08-15T08:50:00.002-07:002015-08-15T08:50:45.320-07:00Erratic Temps After Chemical PregnancyMy temperatures this cycle have been weird. In fact, they look a lot like the temps I was getting before I got on the <a href="http://amzn.to/1DSRNVG" target="_blank">WomanCode die</a>t.<br />
<br />Back then my temperatures were all over the place and I couldn't really detect any patterns. I kept thinking maybe the battery was bad on my thermometer, or I was sleeping with my mouth open, or I wasn't getting good enough sleep.<br />
<br />Then I went on the diet and immediately my charts started looking like a normal person's!<br />
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Those erratic temps were all the PCOS. With my hormones in balance, my temperatures started making sense.<br />
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So when my temperatures this cycle have been all over the place, I have been feeling very upset. Have I not been doing the diet well enough? Do I need to refocus and work harder at avoiding sugar?<br />
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But then I think, I know this is weird, but I haven't been constipated. It's a good sign for the diet working if I'm able to go regularly because it moves the excess hormones out of the body without giving them the chance to get reabsorbed.<br />
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My thermometer was starting to sound strange so I went to replace the battery (and ended up buying a new one since that's easier and cheaper than finding the right battery).<br />
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But when my temp was still low this morning I realized that maybe it's the aftermath of the chemical pregnancy.<br />
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A chemical pregnancy isn't supposed to effect things that much. You're supposed to go straight back to normal and it seems that lots of people get pregnant immediately after. But there are those who find that hormones are out of whack for a cycle.<br />
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There are those who aren't sure they believe I was actually pregnant since I didn't go to the doctor for confirmation. I think this is a big sign that I was. That and the way my temps looked during that cycle and the change in the way I tasted food. Those all indicate to me that I really was pregnant.<br />
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So this cycle what's happening is that I had a very consistent and normal low temperature for 15 days. Then I got a positive OPK. Last time I got a positive OPK it took a full 48 hours to ovulate, remember, and it was cycle day 18. So I was expecting another O on day 18.<br />
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Then my temperature shot up the very next day.<br />
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But then it dropped again. And then went up. And went way down. And stayed down. I'm at day 22 now and my temps are low. So I don't think I've even ovulated yet.<br />
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I've also had a mild cold this cycle and I had a very low-grade fever for a day. So that also may be having an effect on my temps.<br />
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It's very frustrating and I feel flattened by it all. Sick of the effort, sick of the trying, furious at how unfair life can be. Pregnancy announcements continue to pour in from friends.<br />
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Part way into year three of trying I wonder when it's going to finally be our turn.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-68581472139288315772015-08-08T03:55:00.003-07:002015-08-08T03:55:41.147-07:00Hold Still, Ovulation!After a really lovely and perfect cycle last time I was ready to recreate it and maximize our chances for this cycle. Just as I was gearing up to that, ovulation seems to have already happened. And so I'm left with an out-of-control feeling and nothing to do but wait another four weeks to try again.<br />
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We did "baby dance" a couple days before and the timing was probably really good but I don't think I had enough CM. Who knows? All I can do now is wait and see.<br />
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I got a smiley face on OPK yesterday afternoon. But then I had to go to work. So I tried to drink a ton of water and took my expectorant cough medicine. But then we were too tired when I got home. Considering that last time I got a smiley OPK it took almost three days for ovulation I thought we had another day or two. But then my temperature went up this morning.<br />
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It could be a fluke. We'll have to see what my temperature does tomorrow. But I did have a temperature dip the day before and then the positive OPK and now a temp rise. It looks like this cycle is already over.<br />
<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-75041711476420001142015-07-22T03:31:00.001-07:002015-07-22T04:27:11.664-07:00Never Take A Blue Dye TestAstoundingly when I retested today at 11 DPO, the test was unambiguously negative.<br />
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I'm pretty upset that I could get a positive on Monday and a negative on Wednesday. So far no blood so I don't know if I miscarried (seems unlikely) or if I got a false positive.<br />
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My understanding was that false positives were not really a thing. The only potential false positive was user error. But that can't be true because I followed the directions extremely carefully.<br />
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I had been hearing rumors that the blue line dye tests were not as reliable as the pink. I scoffed at that. Why would companies still be selling them?<br />
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Now I'm thinking those people must be right. A blue line test gave me a positive and a pink line test gave me a negative.<br />
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I need to see a doctor to confirm what's going on but I'm quite worried that I was never pregnant and so I'm still pretty much as square one.<br />
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UPDATE: I went ahead and tested with another of the blue dye tests and it was also negative today. I think that suggests that this was a chemical pregnancy, meaning a super early miscarriage.<br />
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That would actually be a very good sign, meaning we are able to get pregnant. I need a doctor to confirm it but evidence suggests that's what it was.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-58315212265302741132015-07-21T10:16:00.000-07:002015-07-21T10:16:48.530-07:00Taste ChangesI knew pregnancy came with things like cravings but I am surprised by this subtle effect of changes in the way things taste.<br />
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It's a little frustrating.<br />
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I've spent the last few months building up meal plans and lists of menus that will be healthy for me and give my body everything it needs to function properly.<br />
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Now a lot of those foods I loved are not tasting right.<br />
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It's extremely subtle but it's like just about everything I eat tastes a shade or two to the left. My go-to sweet potato fries are no longer good.<br />
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And trying new foods is a mixed bag because I know that if I like it then I probably/might not when I'm not pregnant!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-42137099118748804242015-07-20T07:03:00.000-07:002015-07-20T07:03:04.082-07:00This is my PCOS Success StoryI am astounded at the amount of effect diet can have on one's health. <a href="http://amzn.to/1Mkf1GB" target="_blank">WomanCode </a>changed my life, is changing my life.<br />
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At 9 DPO I broke down and took a pregnancy test and there is a faint positive.<br />
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It's super early days, about three weeks, so the miscarriage rate is still high but still. I have never been pregnant before. To even know that it is possible is a miracle.<br />
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I have PCOS and now because of diet my cycles are normal and I was able to get pregnant without interventions.<br />
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The only thing I did special this cycle was take the Musinex stuff to help improve my cervical fluid.<br />
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I'm still kind of in shock. Will be taking more tests in the coming days! I also have been working on a video diary.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-17834900138708243342015-07-14T06:06:00.003-07:002015-07-14T06:06:50.760-07:00It's the ProgesteroneNow thanks to <a href="http://amzn.to/1JfkM2d" target="_blank">The Mother of All Pregnancy Books</a> I know that what I thought could be crazy early pregnancy symptoms are actually symptoms of high progesterone, which is a hormone that rises every second half of your cycle.<br />
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Exhaustion, nausea, soreness, appetite, all of it can be attributed to rising progesterone.<br />
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It doesn't mean pregnancy but it doesn't mean not pregnancy either. It is the body preparing to be pregnant.<br />
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So now when I feel those symptoms I'm happy and thinking it shows that my body is doing what it should be doing.<br />
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I never recognized these symptoms before because I was having long cycles and not ovulating often at all.<br />
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I'm 3 DPO today and wondering why it has to take so long for a fertilized egg to implant!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-80060536340491028382015-07-13T07:05:00.000-07:002015-07-13T07:05:20.097-07:00DIY Larabars ReviewI love DIY and from-scratch recipes. If someone tells me I can make mayonaise myself or english muffins myself, I want to do it. So I was excited when I found DIY recipes for <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B007NMDY38/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B007NMDY38&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=7B24UYIIUL2CJI7V" target="_blank">Larabars </a>on Pinterest.<br />
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<a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B007NMDY38/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B007NMDY38&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=7B24UYIIUL2CJI7V" target="_blank">Larabars </a>are delicious and healthy date, nut, and fruit bars. I happily bought my ingredients and made my <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B007NMDY38/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B007NMDY38&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=7B24UYIIUL2CJI7V" target="_blank">Larabars</a>. It worked out great.<br />
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But I started thinking about something. Dates are expensive. Nuts are expensive. Was I saving money making them myself?<br />
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The woman who I got the recipe from said that <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B007NMDY38/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B007NMDY38&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=7B24UYIIUL2CJI7V" target="_blank">Larabars </a>are about $2 each where she lives and her whole family loves them. She feels like she is saving money making them herself. I doubt she is unless she gets a great deal on those dates and nuts.<br />
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At my Weis grocery store <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B007NMDY38/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B007NMDY38&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=7B24UYIIUL2CJI7V" target="_blank">Larabars</a> are usually on sale for $1 each, sometimes $1.39. And there are coupons for them. I find 40 cent off coupons pretty frequently, which double at my store.<br />
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So I'm usually paying about 20 cents for a <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B007NMDY38/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B007NMDY38&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=7B24UYIIUL2CJI7V" target="_blank">Larabar</a>. That's way, way, way cheaper than buying the ingredients and making them myself!<br />
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Plus the real bars don't have any scary ingredients that you'd want to avoid by making your own. My conclusion is that this is one snack item you should just go ahead and buy!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-84266430210089783392015-07-12T05:36:00.000-07:002015-07-12T05:54:46.161-07:00As Usual, I Panicked Too SoonI am noticing a definite pattern from keeping this journal. I seem to panic that something isn't going to happen just a day or two before it does! What a waste of my energy.<br />
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I was so miserable yesterday. Then I realized that when I took my temp in the morning, it hadn't actually been 48 hours from the time I took the ovulation test. It had been about 40. Which is still cutting it close, since most people report ovulation within 36 hours at most. But technically 48 is still in the realm of possibility.<br />
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At work I started feeling nauseous and thanks to<a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00DNL1B10/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B00DNL1B10&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=Z75JN4U5XA3MIDS7" target="_blank"> a great new book</a> I've been reading I know that that comes from progesterone. Rather than being an early pregnancy sign, it's a natural symptom of the luteal phase of the cycle when progesterone is pumping into your body to prepare it for potential pregnancy.<br />
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Sure enough, this morning my temp had risen. So now we're in the next two week wait!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-80664374440471237152015-07-11T07:12:00.000-07:002015-07-11T07:12:07.321-07:00Joy and PainWhat a very rough journey this all is. I try to remind myself that life is about struggle. What would be the point if we never had any problems and everything always went smoothly? We exist, I think, to overcome challenges. But damn this is hard.<br />
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Two days ago I was super thrilled. I used my new digital ovulation kit and got a positive OPK result for the first time ever in my life! It had a smiley face. I had never seen a positive. I squeeled and jumped up and down (and then jumped on my husband).<br />
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Along with the enormous amounts of good cervical mucus I had an LH surge. We had sex three times in three days, sure that this cycle was finally our time.<br />
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The day after the smiley face I eagerly woke up to check my temperature and it was still low. I thought that's okay because it can take 48 hours after LH surge for ovulation to occur.<br />
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So today I woke up again like a kid on Christmas morning, super excited to see my temperature and to know that all my hard work was paying off.<br />
<br />Still no temperature rise. More than 48 hours from positive OPK result. It was like a Christmas morning with zero presents. Devastating.<br />
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In the previous two cycles I've had the temp rise and not the other symptoms. This cycle I have the CM and ovulation test but so far no temp rise. What is going on?! I'm beyond frustrated.<br />
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I wonder what I'm doing wrong. I'm eating really healthy meals but slipping up in the snacking (tempted to cookies or other desserts at times and occasionally using white bread or tortillas in recipes). I'm getting lots of my target fruits, veggies, nuts, and beans. Do I need to get harsher with myself again and focus on not giving in to sugar temptation? (not to mention those free cookies at work are definitely not vegan).<br />
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I was so sure that I was finally healed.<br />
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I have heard that people with PCOS don't get accurate readings from OPK testers because they tend to always have higher levels of LH (a hormone that surges before ovulation) and so get false positives. I was certain that wasn't me because of never having a positive result ever before. But maybe it is me. Maybe I can never rely on ovulation tests to tell me when ovulation is coming up.<br />
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I'm on day 17 of my cycle and still hoping for a temp rise. And still forcing my husband to have sex with me every single day just in case.<br />
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I hate my body so much right now. I want to hurt it back the way it is hurting me.<br />
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I want to go to sleep and not wake up for about two weeks. I want a way to knock myself out so I can spend some time away from this pain.<br />
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A couple days ago I had lunch with some girl friends and they encouraged me to think about doing a GoFundMe/crowd funding type thing for infertility. I'm super uncomfortable about the idea of asking friends for money for my own selfish desire, but maybe it's worth trying. I can't imagine any other way we'd ever be able to afford to do IVF. Would it be too snarky to do the intro: "This is for all you people who said 'Why don't you just do IVF?' Here's your opportunity to put your money where your mouth is."<br />
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<br />Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-19036230991684285082015-07-08T18:21:00.001-07:002015-07-08T18:21:10.372-07:00Changes This CycleThis cycle I decided to try the cough medicine trick to improve cervical mucus. I read that it has to be a medicine with <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0028K154A/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B0028K154A&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=WFZPAKWSARFL6VGZ" target="_blank">guaifenesin</a>, an expectorant rather than a suppressant. So I bought one at my work and started using it this cycle.<br />
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I was taking one a day from about day 10 on. But I didn't feel like anything was changing. So I also ordered some <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B004382GWK/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B004382GWK&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=SPTAWFJ3HBT5NMWU" target="_blank">Pre-Seed</a> and a <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B002VLYAOI/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B002VLYAOI&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=3SDHIXHAL3IYANBW" target="_blank">digital ovulation tester</a>.<br />
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Too impatient as always!<br />
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I forgot to take the <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0028K154A/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B0028K154A&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=WFZPAKWSARFL6VGZ" target="_blank">guaifenesin </a>and then the next day I suddenly had a lot of cervical mucus. More than I can ever remember seeing. And that was the day before the Pre-Seed arrived!<br />
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The next day was the same. I woke up with a ton of CM.<br />
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Needless to say I'm feeling hopeful this cycle. Now I'm just waiting for my temperature to rise so that I can congratulate myself on some good timing. (Not that the stupid ovulation kit is telling me anything).<br />
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Almost time for another agonizing two week wait.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-25545534073339824372015-06-24T06:29:00.000-07:002015-06-24T06:29:07.080-07:00Hope for this Cycle is OverI've been telling you a lot about how bad I've been but the truth is that I'm still doing pretty well with my diet. I've fallen off in places because I've been stress eating through the two week wait. There's not much comfort to be had and food is a little bit I can get.<br />
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But when I was craving ice cream a few days ago we went out and got coconut milk and agave syrup to make vegan low sugar ice cream.<br />
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Anyway, the point of this post is that my wait to find out for this cycle is over. It is 11 dpo, so how do I know? My temperature dropped at 10 dpo and I thought everything was over.<br />
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Then I read on the Internet about the implantation dip. Apparently it's very common for you to get a dip in temperature around 10 dpo and then your temp goes back up the next day. It doesn't mean that you are pregnant but it doesn't mean that you're not, so my hope went back up.<br />
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Everything rested on what today's temperature was. And this morning it went plummeting really far down. And now I'm seeing the little bit of blood that means my period is about to start.<br />
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I'm ready for this crazy cycle to be over. My ovulation was seriously delayed by stress but according to temperatures I did ovulate so that is good news. The luteal phase was a little short at 11 days instead of 14 but according to the Internet that's not problematically short.<br />
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For next cycle I'm going to work on doing things to improve cervical mucus. After the next cycle if we aren't pregnant then it will be time to get my husband tested (I know that's usually the first step but we happened to find out that something was wrong with me before we got him tested).Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-26486002180535694752015-06-18T07:56:00.000-07:002015-06-18T07:56:40.770-07:00Schrodinger's BabyYesterday was 4 DPO (days past ovulation) and I began the usual ritual of driving myself nuts with potential symptoms.<br />
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I really tried not to. But part way through my day at work I took a drink of water and had intense nausea from it. I tried to eat my lunch but it was totally unappetizing and my stomach just did not want to settle down.<br />
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Naturally I felt swelled with hope and then chastised myself for hoping when it was probably just a reaction to the milk last night (haven't had dairy in a while). But I'm not prone to nausea at all.<br />
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Of course I spent the evening on the Internet looking up nausea 4 dpo and had lots of people saying its impossible to get symptoms so early as implantation can't have happened yet and then some people saying it is possible. And I continue to drive myself nuts.<br />
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My husband looks at me and says maybe I should stay away from looking up baby stuff during the two week weight. I raised an eyebrow. "No," I said, "This is totally necessary. It has to be done."<br />
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[I was able to eat dinner. I was too nauseated to cook but when my husband made an amazing pesto white pasta, I ate four bowls of it! Plus he made me chocolate chip cookies from scratch that I wanted even though he'd never made cookies before. Bad diet choices again]<br />
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This morning, 5 DPO, my temperature was higher than it has ever been before. At 5:00 am I was Googling on my phone whether that could mean pregnancy. [conclusion: it could. It could mean any number of things.]<br />
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Like everyone else, I hate the two week wait with a passion. It feels like my life is on hold while I wait out a Schrodinger's baby situation. No checking ahead of time if there is or is not a baby. It could be either right now.<br />
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A couple weeks ago, when it felt like my cycle wasn't progressing, I had a bit of a melt down. I asked my Facebook friends for advice on how to cope with the grief. One friend, who has been going through infertility too, suggested taking time completely off from the trying.<br />
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She thinks I should go on birth control so that I'm really sure I'm not trying.<br />
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I just can't stand it. It honestly feels like this only the second time we've ever been able to try. We tried in May 2013. Then I had a false pregnancy and found out I had PCOS and worked for the next two years on getting my cycles under control. This is the first time since all that that I've been able to actually time sex to try. I can't give that up now.<br />
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I want to be hopeful that this is our cycle, but I'm afraid of how devastated I'll be if it isn't. It makes me want to fast forward to when I can find out for sure. I hate that I'm living in limbo, wasting these two weeks of my life, trying to make it disappear so I can get to the next point.<br />
<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-9790317241174698672015-06-17T06:58:00.000-07:002015-06-17T06:58:02.768-07:00I've Been BadWhenever I mess up on my diet, I get super upset with myself. It's not just my body that I'm messing with when I don't eat right. Every mis-step means a greater chance of not getting pregnant or at putting a baby's health at risk. The stakes on my diet are super high!<br />
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Yesterday I made vegan mac and cheese. I was going to use sweet potato instead of noodles but I messed it up and went with regular pasta instead. Then my friends talked me into going out for a milkshake. Sugar late at night plus dairy. Bad, bad, bad.<br />
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A couple of days ago I was working until 10:00 pm and then had to be in again at 8:00 the next morning. I didn't have time to cook and pack food and I was starving and moody. I ended up getting one of those 50 cent "apple pies" that come in a cardboard box. Pure trans-fat basically. Oh, but it tasted so good!<br />
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I need to stay dedicated to my diet long term. I need to keep on making good choices day in and day out. My husband says I should be proud of how far I've come and how much healthier I am now than just a few months ago. But it's never enough. The stakes are so high that I demand perfection from myself.<br />
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I'm in the two week wait now. My temp has remained high for the last four days, which is great. I'm trying not to search for pregnancy symptoms because I'm too susceptible to tricking myself into thinking I'm pregnant.<br />
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Time to pack up some of those sweet potato noodles and head to work!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-20596322260324501472015-06-15T19:41:00.000-07:002015-06-15T19:41:33.385-07:00At Last My Temperature RoseDay 29 and my temp finally went up. And the next day it was still up. So good so far.<br />
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I'm struggling again to interpret my symptoms. We did a good job having sex every two to three days throughout this LONG phase before ovulation. And I saw some cervical mucus, though it never really looked like egg white.<br />
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And-- gross out alert--<br />
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I got some very different cervical mucus the day that my temperature rose. It was thick and yellow and sticky. Unlike anything I've seen before. Not knowing how to interpret that, I went to the Internet. Which promptly told me that it was an early sign of pregnancy. Oh jeez. It's like WebMD where everything comes up cancer. Just what I need, another potential sign of pregnancy to obsess over.<br />
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If my temperatures are even remotely accurate then there is no way for it to be a pregnancy symptom. But oh how I want to believe that it is!<br />
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All I can do at this point is keep on eating healthy and tracking my temps.<br />
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If there's nothing this cycle then next cycle I think I'm going to try the Mucinex/Robitussin trick to improve the cervical mucus. Just need to find one that is pure <span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16.0030002593994px;">Guaifenesin.</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16.0030002593994px;"> You don't want one that has a decongestant, apparently.</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: arial, helvetica, clean, sans-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16.0030002593994px;">Other plans include going back to the doctor to get some more tests done if we aren't pregnant within a couple more cycles. Metformin is a possibility. Clomid is a possibility. </span><br />
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As soon as I loaded in the food I ate today I could see immediately that I had deficiencies I hadn't realized.<br />
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This is going to be super important for me to use to make sure that I'm getting all the nutrition I need.<br />
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I'm working on creating a better master meal plan, one that will have a week's worth of food for each phase of the cycle so that I don't have to create a new meal plan every week but can just plug in one that I know works and is full of good foods for that cycle. For another layer I'm now going to put the meal plans through <a href="https://cronometer.com/" target="_blank">cronometer </a>and adjust to help me get more of my nutrients from food sources.<br />
<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-83979662155895339932015-06-05T07:50:00.001-07:002015-06-05T07:50:08.260-07:00Must Have CookbookI don't buy cookbooks anymore. Not with Pinterest where I can get exactly the recipe I want whenever I want. However, I am definitely buying <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1615192107/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=1615192107&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=7YFHOJRGSOM5234Y" target="_blank">But I Could Never Go Vegan</a>. I got it from the library last week and I've made two of the recipes so far...<br />
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Eggplant "meatball" sub. My meatballs don't look great but they taste fantastic. I wasn't sure what to expect. I didn't love the smell as I was cooking them but the end result was perfection.<br />
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and "crab" cakes made with artichoke hearts. I can't wait to make these again. The artichoke hearts were flaky and soft just like crab and the red pepper and corn tasted so yummy fried.<br />
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Both were just incredible. They hit the spot for these meat favorites. My husband and I both loved them.<br />
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I like how the book is divided up with sections for each potential objection to a vegan diet, such as "It's all rabbit food" and "vegan cooking is too hard."<br />
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I've bookmarked just about every recipe in the book. There are so many things I want to try. Today I'm going to do the Portobello Steak and Fruit Cheesecakes.<br />
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I am dying to try jackfruit tuna salad sandwich, tempeh bacon mac and cheese, mushroom grilled cheese sandwiches with sunflower cheddar, tofu fish and chips, and fettuchini alfredo.<br />
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If only I weren't trying to limit my soy intake! There are so many great tofu recipes here!<br />
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I like how many photos there were too. That's something missing from the Veganomicon book. I love to look through pictures and feel inspired by what I could create.<br />
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I am buying this book for sure and I highly recommend you do the same!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-11238115163268899472015-06-03T11:00:00.000-07:002015-06-03T11:00:14.517-07:00Still StrugglingStill no temperature rise. I'm starting to panic that my cycle is not going to be a normal length and I'm obsessing over what I'm doing wrong.<br />
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I am eating really well but I still have challenges. I've been having too much sugar (found a store that sells the coconut ice cream I love). I'm having a hard time not having carbs in the evenings (even though they are complex carbs).<br />
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I also need to cut back on dairy more and be careful about soy. The jury is still out on whether soy really does mess with one's cycle and imitate estrogen in the system but to be on the safe side I should avoid it. Which is really hard! (I made a great almond crusted tofu today).<br />
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If stress is really what delayed my ovulation, I need to find a way to relax. Panicking over the role that stress has played is just adding to the stress and making it all worse. I don't know what makes me relax. My husband has his baths that he loves. I nap when I'm stressed. But I need ways to destress when I'm awake. Time to do some research on things to try for relaxing.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-6196811728446957112015-06-02T06:09:00.001-07:002015-06-02T06:09:41.992-07:00Day 17Day 17 and no temperature rise yet.<br />
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I know that I had the most stressful experience of my life last week and that stress can delay ovulation...but for how long? How do I relax and let my body know that it's okay?<br />
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As always happens to me these days, I feel fear and panic over whether my body is going to make the transition to the next step or not.<br />
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<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-69683017509692907842015-05-31T06:06:00.001-07:002015-05-31T06:06:58.097-07:00Travel Food I spent last week on a rather stressful trip to NYC. I knew it would be cycle day 14 the day I got back so I packed as much ovulation food as I could. Apricots, red pepper hummus, etc. I was staying with my cousin who eats a very healthy vegetarian diet so I was able to eat very healthy while there. (My favorite was avocado sushi with flax seed rice from Silver Rice in Brooklyn).<br />
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Despite all this healthy eating and walking three to four miles a day, I gained weight while there.<br />
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Very discouraging and frustrating. And before you say I gained muscle, I knew I was gaining weight because my bra strap was getting tighter. I don't think I was gaining muscle mass in my rib cage.<br />
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My husband thinks that the stress contributed. Hopefully now that I'm home I can relax and some of that stress will drain out of my body and take the weight with it!<br />
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I took my thermometer with me and checked for ovulation, but my temperature has not risen as of yet and today is day 15. I was able to get some sex in as soon as I got home in the evening of day 14. So I'm somewhat hopeful this cycle.<br />
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It feels like the first time we've been able to actually try since May 2013. I've spent all my time since that time trying to get my cycle back after a psycho-somatic pregnancy.<br />
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I wouldn't be surprised if stress delayed ovulation this cycle, which is okay since I needed time to get back to my husband.<br />
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I say I'm feeling hopeful but that's not entirely accurate. I feel like I should be feeling hopeful. A week ago I was feeling hopeful. Right now I'm struggling to let go of my anxiety from the trip and as with every transition of my cycle, I feel unreasonable panic that the next step isn't going to happen. I would really like to know if I'm ovulating. I have yet to ever get a positive result on the pee sticks that my friend gave me.<br />
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I'm reading a lot of infertility memoirs on my Kindle app. Even though they make me cry, I find them comforting in some way. I also wish I could find more books that I've heard called "Mommy lit." Chick lit style books about women dealing with pregnancy or babies. I've read maybe three of them and I want more but I don't know how to find them!<br />
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Here are some I've found on Amazon:<br />
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<ul>
<li><a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B000FBFNOM/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B000FBFNOM&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=CPAUFLVLN5NMLOEZ">Babyville: A Novel</a><img alt="" border="0" src="http://ir-na.amazon-adsystem.com/e/ir?t=ruthmadi-20&l=as2&o=1&a=B000FBFNOM" height="1" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important;" width="1" /> </li>
<li><a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B005C71MQM/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B005C71MQM&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=HNKQVQWFLJQNUTIJ">Three Girls and a Baby</a><img alt="" border="0" src="http://ir-na.amazon-adsystem.com/e/ir?t=ruthmadi-20&l=as2&o=1&a=B005C71MQM" height="1" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important;" width="1" /> </li>
<li><a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00MSUCXHS/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B00MSUCXHS&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=EFBUWQELIYGHFXS5">Totlandia: Book 1 (Humorous Contemporary Women's Fiction): The Onesies - Fall</a><img alt="" border="0" src="http://ir-na.amazon-adsystem.com/e/ir?t=ruthmadi-20&l=as2&o=1&a=B00MSUCXHS" height="1" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important;" width="1" /> </li>
<li><a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00BG4S916/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B00BG4S916&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=Z2MASV6RPJJJTYVP">The Buggy List</a><img alt="" border="0" src="http://ir-na.amazon-adsystem.com/e/ir?t=ruthmadi-20&l=as2&o=1&a=B00BG4S916" height="1" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important;" width="1" /> </li>
<li><a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0043RSK8U/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B0043RSK8U&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=FMDNRBVVCIAR7QN6">The Baby Planner</a><img alt="" border="0" src="http://ir-na.amazon-adsystem.com/e/ir?t=ruthmadi-20&l=as2&o=1&a=B0043RSK8U" height="1" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important;" width="1" /> </li>
<li><a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B00OGNOWY2/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=B00OGNOWY2&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=V5UOYAMVTAK63HDK">Milked: A Modern Mommy Tale with a Retro Twist</a><img alt="" border="0" src="http://ir-na.amazon-adsystem.com/e/ir?t=ruthmadi-20&l=as2&o=1&a=B00OGNOWY2" height="1" style="border: none !important; margin: 0px !important;" width="1" /> </li>
</ul>
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(some of these are free first books in a series)
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I'll also have recommendations on the infertility memoirs soon.<br />
<br />Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-77454597069642278252015-05-23T06:33:00.001-07:002015-05-23T06:33:33.147-07:00Rough Day YesterdayI was so down yesterday. It was depression like I expect during PMS but my period just <i>ended</i>. I was hopeless, despairing, and angry. A lot of things I am not at all used to being. It was brutal. And I don't know what caused it.<br />
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Perhaps a number of anxieties coming together. Like my husband going away for the weekend (I chose not to go and work extra hours instead), my friend getting into a car accident and me having flashbacks to when I lost my closest friend in a car accident five years ago, stress over a trip to NYC I have to take next week (the city scares the hec out of me and I feel super overwhelmed and in over my head).<br />
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It may also have been the melatonin.<br />
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I had never heard of it until I met my husband but he has me use it sometimes to help me sleep. I read the other day that melatonin may actually help your eggs so that made me more willing to take it. I took it the night before yesterday and while it did help me fall asleep, I feel like when it leaves my system I wake up. So I woke up at 3:00 am and then me waking up caused both the animals to wake up and they thought is must be breakfast time so they kept me awake for the next two hours until it actually was breakfast time for them.<br />
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So then I took my temperature and, not surprisingly, it was way off. And that made me start stressing about my cycle again even though I knew the measurement couldn't be accurate. (And today my temperature is back on track).<br />
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I'm also stressing trying to understand what it means that I get really horny right after my period ends. I should be feeling that around ovulation time not the day I stop bleeding!<br />
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I want to be hopeful that this month is finally our month but the pressure of trying not to get my hopes up too high is stressful (And yes, believe me, I have heard many times about how stress is preventing me from getting pregnant).Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-87921206423228738822015-05-19T03:57:00.000-07:002015-05-19T03:57:59.571-07:00Excess Hair Growth and Measures of SuccessOne of my most noticeable symptoms of PCOS is hirsutsim, which is excess hair growth. It's one of those signs that should have told me years ago that I had it. But all the women in my family are fairly hairy. We have pale skin and thick black hair. I never really noticed that I was the only one who had it not only on my upper lip and between my eyebrows but also on my chin and neck.<br />
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I've struggled with feeling ugly because of this hair for years and years. I've tried every hair removal process known to man (no, seriously. Every single one). These days I just shave it. It's the simplest and quickest.<br />
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But now that I know that the hair growth is part of PCOS, it should get better as I use my diet to get my hormones back into sync.<br />
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I need to find a way to track how often I'm shaving to see if there is any improvement.<br />
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<a href="http://www.pcosdietsupport.com/lifestyle/pcos-and-hirsutism-natural-management/" target="_blank">This article </a>has some information about supplements I could take to help with this. It also says that cutting out dairy is the most important thing to do for excess hair growth.<br />
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I think I'm going to get the paid version of <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.sleekbit.ovuview&hl=en" target="_blank">my fertility tracking app, OvuView</a>, because then I can set custom things to track like whether I shaved and constipation stuff!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-63954615470353546942015-05-17T11:15:00.000-07:002015-05-18T08:57:24.631-07:00A PCOS Miracle & Meal Plan for 5/17 to 5/24Okay, so the PCOS miracle I'm really looking for is pregnancy, obviously. But today my period started and that's pretty amazing. It is day 30 of my cycle!<br />
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A 30 day cycle is just incredible. Absolutely perfect. Just what I need. Once I keep this up I just need to figure out if I'm ovulating. Plus a shorter cycle makes it a lot easier to time sex effectively.<br />
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This is great news and I'm excited that <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/006213079X/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=006213079X&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=JLZSBR5WARKEPE2I" target="_blank">the diet</a> is really working. (And you can tell from my last post that I really am going dramatically up and down between hope and despair each day!)<br />
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I have been struggling to keep up with my meal plans. I wanted to use up the food I had to not waste but trying to work from leftovers and what I had on hand is tricky when I can't depend on my usual go-to meals (grilled cheese and tuna fish sandwiches). I need some new go-tos! But I also need new go-tos for each cycle phase. That should be a post soon.<br />
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But I'm going to try to get back to having a plan for each day so I know what to make for myself and my husband and I'm not struggling to get him enough food.<br />
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Sunday (today)<br />
Snack: kale chips<br />
Dinner: yam and black bean soup with orange (<a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1600940498/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=1600940498&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=W3WNOJVL26IQA2LX" target="_blank">afr</a>)<br />
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Monday<br />
Breakfast: chocolate peanut butter chia seed parfait<br />
Lunch: wild rice with cranberries and mushrooms<br />
Snack: cranberry DIY larabar<br />
Dinner: black bean soup<br />
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Tuesday<br />
Breakfast: parfait<br />
Lunch: stir fry with kale, mushrooms, carrots, onion over brown and wild rice blend<br />
Snack: watermelon pieces<br />
Dinner: miso soup and a<a href="http://delishknowledge.com/almond-butter-banana-popsicles/" target="_blank">lmond butter banana popsicles</a><br />
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Wednesday<br />
Breakfast: graham cracker with nut butter and cranberries<br />
Lunch: rajma with brown and wild rice<br />
Snack: lara bar<br />
Dinner: miso soup and<a href="http://omnivorescookbook.com/recipes/sticky-rice-cake-with-red-bean-paste" target="_blank"> sticky rice cakes with red bean paste</a><br />
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Follicular Phase Switch<br />
Thursday<br />
Breakfast: graham crackers with nut butter and clementine<br />
Lunch: <a href="http://jenessasdinners.blogspot.com/2013/12/sweet-potato-and-avocado-yaki-onigiri.html#more" target="_blank">sweet potato and avocado onigiri</a><br />
Snack: <a href="http://delishknowledge.com/avocado-wontons/" target="_blank">avocado wontons</a><br />
Dinner: Going out with father-in-law<br />
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Friday<br />
Breakfast:<br />
Lunch: creamy mushroom fettuccine (<a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1600940498/ref=as_li_tl?ie=UTF8&camp=1789&creative=390957&creativeASIN=1600940498&linkCode=as2&tag=ruthmadi-20&linkId=W3WNOJVL26IQA2LX" target="_blank">afr</a>)<br />
Snack: cashew cookie dough lara bar<br />
Dinner: boca burger with lots of toppings<br />
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Saturday (Husband out on boat)<br />
leftovers<br />
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<b>Grocery List:</b><br />
(for monday)<br />
bananas<br />
wild rice<br />
cranberries<br />
mushrooms<br />
dates<br />
almonds<br />
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(for rest of week)<br />
miso<br />
peanut butter<br />
clementines or orange<br />
wonton wrappers<br />
avocado<br />
cachews<br />
chocolate chips<br />
whole wheat flour<br />
portabello soup<br />
nori<br />
<br />
Asian market:<br />
red bean paste<br />
<span style="background-color: white; font-family: Lora, serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 26px;">glutinous/sweet rice flour from long grain</span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-374747512148546157.post-47389014579581258822015-05-15T08:35:00.003-07:002015-05-15T08:35:55.137-07:00Not So Sure My Temp Is HigherThe trouble with this cycle is I didn't start taking my temperature until quite a ways into it. I thought it was on the high side (which would be good) compared to when I was charting a couple years ago when we first started ttc.<br />
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But I went back and looked at those charts and now I'm not so sure that my temp is elevated at all. I don't know what to make of that.<br />
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If I'm still in follicular phase and not to luteal yet, then that's a very bad sign for the length of this cycle and the healing of my body.<br />
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Feeling pretty discouraged right now. I need more temps and more cycles to really know what's going on.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0